Day 6 - Something I hope I never have to do in my life

Today is Day 6 of a Month of ME. And a real upbeat subject today, isn't it???

Gosh, there's a lot of things I hope I never have to do:

Bury my child,
Lose my belongings to a house fire,
Get hit by lightning,
Become paralyzed.

You know...NONE of those things sound at all appealing to me, but hopefully...also outside the realm of possibility.

Day 5 - Something I hope to accomplish in my life

Today is Day 5 of a Month of ME. Originally, I planned to complete these days quickly...you know, one per day! Life keeps popping up, and slowing my blog progress, but I am going to keep at it!

There are a lot of things I hope to accomplish in my life...some "frivolous," some not, but all things I'd love to "check off my bucket list."

• See the Grand Canyon
• Visit Greece
• Learn to crochet
• Run a 5K...and then maybe a 10K?
• See Shannon get married and become a mother
• Enjoy watching Shannon achieve a career she loves
• Travel as much of Route 66 as possible!
• Stay out of debt
• Live (if only briefly) where it snows
• Live (if only briefly) near the beach
• (I haven't blogged about this yet, but an item that would have been on this list has recently been checked off...own a Jeep!)
• Achieve a healthy weight and fitness level
• Read the Bible daily

I've made huge strides in dealing with my worries. This has been a huge struggle for me in my life, and getting it under control is something I'm really proud of. It's hard to "quantify" for a list, but definitely a trait I want to continue!

For a long time, my life felt like it was in a holding pattern. There was a LOT going on. A LOT to deal with...but it was really hard to see that I was accomplishing anything.

Now, I feel like I'm in a huge growth pattern, and seeing all kinds of opportunities for change, renewal, etc. It's exciting!!!

Day 4 - Something I need to forgive in someone else

Today is Day 4 of a Month of ME.

I'm not a big grudge carrier. I kind of used to be, but you know what? Life's too short, and I don't really hang around any people that I feel are *trying* to hurt me. If they do? It was probably a mistake or at least unintentional...I forgive them.

Something for which I need to forgive myself

Originally, I didn't know what I was going to write here. I try very hard to not live my life with regrets. I work hard to live in a way that I can be proud of....

There are two things I can think of though. Things that I feel "niggling" inside of me.

This one isn't so much something I need to forgive, but something that does cause me regret from time to time. Occasionally I speak without thinking it out fully. I stand behind what I say...but sometimes my delivery sucks, or my tactfulness is lacking. Looking back, I tend to be able to see when I've done this...and I try to apologize when I mis-speak.

The thing that I need to forgive in myself is that I always put myself last. I get presents from preschool parents, and I give them away. I get gift cards, and I spend them on others. I never buy new clothes for myself...in fact, I can't remember the last time I bought clothes from a real store...not Goodwill. (Yes, it's a "green" choice to make, but mine stems more from things being "just good enough" for me.) Several months ago, I went out and bought a new purse and wallet, and it was a BIG deal. I never EVER get my haircut...not because I'm growing it out, but because I just don't make myself a priority.

This is not ok anymore. I don't want Shannon to grow up thinking that SHE isn't worth taking care of, why is that ok for me???