30 Days of Truths - a MONTH of ME

Eep. So yeah. It's been basically a MONTH since I blogged! I just didn't have it in me to sit down and write! School's back in session, my parents have moved in, and some MAJOR stuff has been going on here (all good though, I assure you!)...and I just didn't have the energy at the end of the day to sit and write it out. And so I didn't. But during this month, I've been thinking about blogging, and trying to motivate myself to get going again.

But! I was just reading Laura's blog, and she posted this cool list of writing prompts that are all about ME. I scanned the first few, and I'm game. I haven't read them all, so most of this will be written "off the cuff."

Day 01 — Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 — Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 — Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 — Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 — Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 — Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 — Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 — Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 — Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 — Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 — Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 — Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 — A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 — A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 — Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 — Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 — A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 — Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 — What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 — Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 — (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 — Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 — Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 — Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 — The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 — Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 — What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 — What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 — Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 — A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Ready to dive in? Off we go....

Day 1 - Something you hate about yourself

Well wow. What a start. I really don't use the word HATE very much. There are VERY few things I actually hate.

One thing I really dislike about myself is that I jump to conclusions and that despite my best intentions, I think I'm a pessimist. I'm hoping that some of the recent changes around here will help me with this, but my brain is much more likely to jump to the worst case scenario, than it is to the best, or even a pleasant outcome. This relates into EVERY aspect of my life...so it's something that I do work on. I read, I pray, I talk to others...

I find that the more I focus on being grateful for my situation and what I have...the better. I try to uplift others, and to be helpful...because in doing so, I find that it elevates my own thoughts.

So...I'm baaaack! Tune in (gasp) tomorrow (?) for installment two!