Thursday, September 30, 2010

Day 2 - Something I love about myself

Well, this hasn't been much easier to think of, lol. I've had this window open for like AN HOUR!

Good heavens...and now it's been like another 30 minutes. OK Cindy...FOCUS!

I love being a parent. I love being a teacher. But those aren't really things about *myself.* Those are things that identify me.

I love that I am a work in progress. I love that I am resilient. I love that I don't give up easily.

Things have been tough the past several years. Some pretty significant "stuff" has happened to me and my family...and I've really dedicated myself to not just throwing in the towel (I'm not talking about marital trouble) or just throwing my hands up in the air and giving up. I've really tried to maintain an attitude of gratitude, and to try to find the lessons in what's been happening.

It has not been easy. It hasn't always been my first instinct to think that way...but I do always get back to this place and I am very glad for it.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

30 Days of Truths - a MONTH of ME

Eep. So yeah. It's been basically a MONTH since I blogged! I just didn't have it in me to sit down and write! School's back in session, my parents have moved in, and some MAJOR stuff has been going on here (all good though, I assure you!)...and I just didn't have the energy at the end of the day to sit and write it out. And so I didn't. But during this month, I've been thinking about blogging, and trying to motivate myself to get going again.

But! I was just reading Laura's blog, and she posted this cool list of writing prompts that are all about ME. I scanned the first few, and I'm game. I haven't read them all, so most of this will be written "off the cuff."

Day 01 — Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 — Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 — Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 — Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 — Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 — Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 — Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 — Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 — Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 — Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 — Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 — Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 — A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 — A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 — Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 — Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 — A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 — Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 — What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 — Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 — (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 — Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 — Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 — Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 — The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 — Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 — What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 — What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 — Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 — A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Ready to dive in? Off we go....

Day 1 - Something you hate about yourself

Well wow. What a start. I really don't use the word HATE very much. There are VERY few things I actually hate.

One thing I really dislike about myself is that I jump to conclusions and that despite my best intentions, I think I'm a pessimist. I'm hoping that some of the recent changes around here will help me with this, but my brain is much more likely to jump to the worst case scenario, than it is to the best, or even a pleasant outcome. This relates into EVERY aspect of my it's something that I do work on. I read, I pray, I talk to others...

I find that the more I focus on being grateful for my situation and what I have...the better. I try to uplift others, and to be helpful...because in doing so, I find that it elevates my own thoughts.

So...I'm baaaack! Tune in (gasp) tomorrow (?) for installment two!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Something exciting this way comes

We are avid campers, and for the past few years have LOVED having a pop-up camper. It made it possible for Patrick to continue to camp, despite his chronic pain. We had to sell our camper this summer, to make some money to have our house painted (which should happen in about 2 weeks...yay!).

We had invited my parents to move in with us, and therefore knew we'd soon have to upgrade our camper. We figured we save our money, and maybe by next summer we'd be able to buy something.

We got news of an unexpected (mid-size) windfall, lol...and went and put a deposit on this:

Squee!!! We'll pick it up the first week of October, and I can hardly wait!