Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Day 6 - Something I hope I never have to do in my life

Today is Day 6 of a Month of ME. And a real upbeat subject today, isn't it???

Gosh, there's a lot of things I hope I never have to do:

Bury my child,
Lose my belongings to a house fire,
Get hit by lightning,
Become paralyzed.

You know...NONE of those things sound at all appealing to me, but hopefully...also outside the realm of possibility.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Day 5 - Something I hope to accomplish in my life

Today is Day 5 of a Month of ME. Originally, I planned to complete these days quickly...you know, one per day! Life keeps popping up, and slowing my blog progress, but I am going to keep at it!

There are a lot of things I hope to accomplish in my life...some "frivolous," some not, but all things I'd love to "check off my bucket list."

  • See the Grand Canyon
  • Visit Greece
  • Learn to crochet
  • Run a 5K...and then maybe a 10K?
  • See Shannon get married and become a mother
  • Enjoy watching Shannon achieve a career she loves
  • Travel as much of Route 66 as possible!
  • Stay out of debt
  • Live (if only briefly) where it snows
  • Live (if only briefly) near the beach
  • (I haven't blogged about this yet, but an item that would have been on this list has recently been checked off...own a Jeep!)
  • Achieve a healthy weight and fitness level
  • Read the Bible daily

I've made huge strides in dealing with my worries. This has been a huge struggle for me in my life, and getting it under control is something I'm really proud of. It's hard to "quantify" for a list, but definitely a trait I want to continue!

For a long time, my life felt like it was in a holding pattern. There was a LOT going on. A LOT to deal with...but it was really hard to see that I was accomplishing anything.

Now, I feel like I'm in a huge growth pattern, and seeing all kinds of opportunities for change, renewal, etc. It's exciting!!!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Day 4 - Something I need to forgive in someone else

Today is Day 4 of a Month of ME.

I'm not a big grudge carrier. I kind of used to be, but you know what? Life's too short, and I don't really hang around any people that I feel are *trying* to hurt me. If they do? It was probably a mistake or at least unintentional...I forgive them.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Something for which I need to forgive myself

Originally, I didn't know what I was going to write here. I try very hard to not live my life with regrets. I work hard to live in a way that I can be proud of....

There are two things I can think of though. Things that I feel "niggling" inside of me.

This one isn't so much something I need to forgive, but something that does cause me regret from time to time. Occasionally I speak without thinking it out fully. I stand behind what I say...but sometimes my delivery sucks, or my tactfulness is lacking. Looking back, I tend to be able to see when I've done this...and I try to apologize when I mis-speak.

The thing that I need to forgive in myself is that I always put myself last. I get presents from preschool parents, and I give them away. I get gift cards, and I spend them on others. I never buy new clothes for myself...in fact, I can't remember the last time I bought clothes from a real store...not Goodwill. (Yes, it's a "green" choice to make, but mine stems more from things being "just good enough" for me.) Several months ago, I went out and bought a new purse and wallet, and it was a BIG deal. I never EVER get my haircut...not because I'm growing it out, but because I just don't make myself a priority.

This is not ok anymore. I don't want Shannon to grow up thinking that SHE isn't worth taking care of, why is that ok for me???