Friday, January 29, 2010

Never a good sign

You know it's going to be a long day when your child comes in the room at 3 am and says "I feel like I'm going to throw up." (Bright least she's a big kid, and hadn't just puked all in her bed, carpet, etc.) Proceed to throw up, she did...again and again. And then it got worse, but I'll spare you the details.

I hated to go to work. My mommy senses were so sad to leave her, but I knew she'd be in good hands with Patrick. He's an excellent and sensitive care-giver. I told him to be a good mama, and went off to work. I called to check on her at 10 am, and she was sleeping. He called me at 11 am and said "guess who's throwing up?" I said "Shannon?" and he said "No. I am." Oh geez.

At this point I considered going home with one of my co-workers for the weekend. When school was over, I ran to Kroger and bought all the good sickie foods...ginger ale, jello, applesauce, bananas, bread (because we were running low), and gatorade. I didn't buy saltines because we already had lots. I bought myself a bag of Doritos, because I know at some point during all of this I am going to want a fun food, lol.

I got home to two pitiful people...fevers over 101 and still sick as dogs. For now (10 pm) the barfing has stopped...but they both are still feverish and feeling yucky.

I am sympathetic and taking good care of them...but please God, oh please don't let me get it!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Another way of looking at it

I was talking to Patrick this morning about "quitting" the Shred challenge, etc.

He said "Babe, instead of feeling bad about "quitting," why not feel GREAT that you've exercised 4-5 times a week for the last 3 weeks? That's fantastic!"

Um. Wow. Yeah, why DON'T I do that? He's so smart.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Not a quitter...but

I love doing The Shred. And I love the results it's bringing. But I have to be's a bit too intense of a work out for me right now. I know the people on The Biggest Loser show are even less in shape and I am, and work out harder and longer than this DVD...but I'm not them. I still have a family to take care of, and a job to go to, etc...and I don't have massage and physical therapists to take care of me each night. Each time I do the DVD, I physically hurt and feel run down for days afterward.

I am going to work on building my fitness level and stamina by doing my elliptical machine and walking. I think I may even throw in some Shred workouts once or twice a week, because I really do love them.

I am wanting to continue to work out and get healthier...but trying to force myself to Shred EVERY day is actually having the opposite effect!

I hope you all will continue to support me...but I'm sorry to drop out of the 30 Day Challenge.

Friend Makin' Monday

OK, it's 8 minutes into Tuesday, but I was just browsing through my reader, and found this fun carnival at ae filkins. I just felt like I needed to do it!

Outside my is dark and windy. Earlier, we had a teeny flurry of snow.

I am thinking....that I need to be more forgiving to myself. I am not perfect, and I don't expect that of anyone but myself!

I am thankful...that Patrick and I are moving toward accomplishing some of our goals.

I am praying..."The Finger Prayer" a nutshell:
  • My thumb is closest to my heart – pray for my family.
  • My index finger points out things we don’t always see; it instructs me – pray for teachers.
  • My middle finger stands taller than the rest – remember to pray for the president and leaders around the world.
  • My ring finger is weak and cannot stand alone well – pray for the weak and the sick.
  • My pinkie finger is the smallest – remember to pray for myself.
I am reading...Cleaving by Julie Powell (the Julie & Julia girl)

I am creating...a cleaner, simpler, more organized home.

From the kitchen...Nice and tidy. Hubby made dinner tonight!

Around the house...All are quiet and sleeping...except me!

One of my favorite things...Snuggling up with Patrick and my two littlest dogs and going to sleep for the night.

A few plans for the rest of the preschool prep for February (calendars, newsletters, progress reports), appointment with Patrick on Wednesday afternoon, awards breakfast at Shan's school on Friday. Babysitting each afternoon except Wednesday. Blood drive on Friday afternoon.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Spelling Bee Recap

We haven't stopped smiling about it, so I thought I'd tell you about Shannon's cool Spelling Bee day.

We got to the High School, and Shannon got all registered. She drew her number...16...and then was given a trophy for winning at the school level.


Then, it was time for the Bee:

It was a really good Bee...lots of good words. This was Shannon's 3rd year at the county level; up til this year she has placed 8th in the county. As soon as she was guaranteed to be at least 7th, she shot us this huge smile. Well, pretty soon, she was in the top 4. The top 3 go to the district bee, plus there's an alternate…so that was exciting! And just a minute later, she was top 3...then two!

These two girls were a perfect match for each other. They went 16 rounds back and forth before Shannon missed a word (acumen). (I was CERTAIN Shannon knew that word, but she told me afterward that she didn't. She assumed it had the same root as "accurate" and spelled it "accumen." Oh well.) The other girl spelled it correctly, and then spelled her own word (ardency) she was the winner! Shannon was SO thrilled to earn 2nd place!

Shannon won a $150 Visa gift card, a trophy, and will get to go to the District Bee in late February!

So proud of this girl!

Getting to Know YOU Sunday

Keely over at MannLand5 does something called Getting to know you on Sundays. So, here are my answers! I'm looking forward to reading everyone's answers!

1. Waffles, pancakes or french toast?
Yes, please! Seriously, I love them all. I grew up with my dad being the family waffles have a special place in my heart. I am the pancake queen of the I CAN'T leave them out. And then, my home-made french toast is never quite the way I want it's the one I'm most apt to order when we go out for breakfast. So...I'll just answer YES!

2. Dream home..What would it look like?
Mmm...An older, yet well maintained farm house with a large porch. Located in rustic surroundings...pasture land, large trees, barn, workshop, etc. Hardwood floors, beadboard walls, tons of charm and character!

3. Favorite sport to watch during the Winter Olympics?
Oooh, there are so many! I'm an Olympics JUNKIE!!! I love everything from alpine skiing, to pairs figure skating, to ski jumping, to luge, etc. I just love it all!

4. The first word that comes to mind when describing yourself? Dedicated

5. Dresses, pants (jeans, leggings, etc.) or skirts? Definitely pants. I teach two-year-old preschool for a living. Comfort and durability are the most important.

6. What is your favorite time of day? Well, I'm a night owl, but I also love to sleep. This is a problem if I actually have goals to accomplish anything, lol.

7. Beach or Mountains..which do you prefer?
I grew up in California, so I do love the beach. But I also love the mountains. I think I prefer the mountains. The crisp air, green trees, brilliant blue skies...ahhhhh. Yes, please.

8.Will you watch the Super Bowl? Oh, probably. I'm one of those people that enjoys the spectacle of it, plus the commercials are a hoot.

Coming up later...The Shred, Day 14.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

My kid rocks!

Remember a few weeks ago, when Shannon won her school spelling bee? Well, this morning was our County Bee, and she came in second place!!! We are sooo very proud of her!!! Shannon is a great speller, and has won her school spelling bee every year (except 4th grade, when she was absent with scarlet fever). This was Shannon's third trip to the county bee. Both her 5th and 6th grade year, she placed 8th in the county. She was thrilled to improve her standing...and THEN she found out she won a $150 Visa gift card, a trophy...AND she gets to continue on to the district Bee in February!!! Woot!

Thursday, January 21, 2010


So, this 30 Day Shred is giving me more than a physical workout. I don't know if I was in denial going in or what...but I'm getting just as rigorous a MENTAL workout going through it, too.

Truth #1: I didn't work out yesterday or the day before. I had hit the wall. Seriously. I am still dealing with this issue at work, and I think I'm going through the grief process. I've been having disbelief, sadness, shock, anger, etc. It's grueling. Then, I got my period, and anyone that knows me, knows they tend to knock me out. I just had NOTHING left to give. I know that's "technically" not the right answer, but it is what it is. I am trying to make a life-long change here, and in reality, I'm just not going to be able to work out every single day.

The good news is: I got back on the horse today. Day 13 is done and in the bag. The other good news is that Level 2 is getting much more manageable for me. It's soooo hard, and I think I'm going to die while I'm doing it, but I AM DOING IT.

Doing the Shred is so hard. I really think that gearing myself up mentally to work THAT HARD physically is part of the problem. At least for me. I suppose in reality it's just as easy as "pushing play" and getting started. But to know how hard I'm about to have to work, and how deeply I have to pull to get through's tiring! When this 30 days is over, I really feel like I will have accomplished something.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Need support

So, today's Shred Day 14...and I'm at the point where I just don't wanna. I know I should, and to be honest, I most likely will. But, I just really need a cheerleader, or a kick in the pants, or something.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Three is better than two

I just love three day weekends. They're soooo much better than your standard two day weekend. First you have a total DO NOTHING day. Then you get your busy errand day, and finally your church and get ready for the week day! Just perfect. Ahhhh.

Today was nice. E and E were here all day. We played barbies, horses, Lego Batman for Wii, built a huge fort, had a pampas grass battle in the front yard, colored with sidewalk chalk, and read books! Phew!

I am one of five girls supplying lunch for our preschool staff meeting tomorrow, so after they left, Patrick and I made 15 POUNDS of taco meat and two dozen chocolate cupcakes. We grocery shopped and worked out, too! No wonder I'm tired!!!

Today's Shred (Day 12) was hard, but manageable! Yay! I was planning to go back to Level 1 today, but I decided at the last minute to push through and stick with Level 2...and surprisingly, I was better able to keep up! No cursing, and no crying! Woot!

Right now in my living room

Hiding inside that work of art is a 3-1/2 year old, a 7 year old, and a 13 year old! Everyone has a flashlight and a book. Too funny!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Feeling the burn

Holy cow. I did my Shred (Day 11) workout pretty early this morning. Well, at 10:30, but early compared to when I've been doing it. It was so hard, I actually almost CRIED at one point, lol! Just out of sheer exhaustion! Makes me understand a little more what the Biggest Loser contestants must be going through, and why we see them cry so often in the gym. I'm only working out for 20 minutes, and they're going for hours and hours! I honestly can't imagine.

It makes my heart full to see things like De-Lurk for Haiti and Helping Haiti in the blogosphere. I don't have much money to help out, but generous people like this, help me make it do more. Thank you!!! Even if you've donated...but especially if you haven't, please check out these blogs (and the McLinky on De-Lurk for Haiti) to comment, etc. which will raise funds to be donated to Haitian relief efforts.

We have the day off tomorrow for MLK Day, but I'm watching E and her brother (also E) from 8:15 to 3. Gotta think of some fun stuff to do. Will go donate blood after that.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

10 Days complete!

I finished my 10th day of The Shred today. I went ahead and moved up to Level 2, because I just couldn't bear doing Level 1 one more day in a row, lol! I may go back and forth between levels 1 and 2 this week and next. Level 2 severely kicked my butt, so I'm not sure I'll be up to level 3 in 10 more days. I may do that next month. (I am planning to Shred again after these 30 days are over.)

Level 2 is INTENSE, but I liked the workout better. Well, all except those alternating lunge/pendulum lift things. I actually cursed out loud during those! LOL!

I have to say, I don't see any difference in my body, looking at my Day 1 and Day 10 pictures, and I've only lost 1 pound...but I feel different. Inside my flab, I feel my muscles are tighter and definitely stronger. My goal for the next 10 days is to do better with my eating/snacking, and to consistently drink more water. (I did pretty well with my water intake, but I could do better.) In my defense, my eating wasn't horrible either, in fact it was OK. But there is definite room for improvement.

My weight this morning was 207, which is -4 from New Year's Eve. I didn't take measurements when I started, so I didn't today either. LOL. The pictures are shown before, then after...before, then after.


Friday, January 15, 2010

Taking a day off

My body just feels exhausted. I'm taking a break from Shredding tonight. I think I'm still fighting off this cold, and I just reeeeally don't need to be sick. I'll hit day 10 hard tomorrow, and take some pics. I HOPE there's a difference! The scale's not doing much, but hopefully I LOOK a little tighter.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Quite a day

I got some really shocking news at work today, and it's kind of thrown me for a loop. I can't really reveal too much, because I work with children, and I'd hate for someone involved to stumble upon my blog and know I was talking about them. Mostly, my feelings are hurt and I kind of feel like I've been slapped in the face. My heart hurts for the child involved. (My boss is involved, and she is on "my side," so no worries about's just not a nice feeling.)

And then, Patrick and I had our appointment this afternoon, and things are OK...but we have some big decisions to make. I know I'm being cryptic here too, and I know it's my blog, and if I can't let my feelings out on my own blog, where can I? But again, this is just something I don't feel like I can broadcast freely. We're OK...just in the deep thoughts, and big decisions mode.

So, it's just been a heavy sort of day. Blarg.

I did my Day 9 Shred tonight, and it was easier than the past two nights. I'm actually looking forward to moving on to Level 2 on Saturday, because I HATE those lunge/bicep curls. It's not because they're hard (which they are), but I just don't feel like I'm doing them right! It's annoying! LOL! I checked my weight this morning, and it was UP 2 lbs, which was kind of a bummer, but I think I know why...and there's not much I can do about THAT, lol.

I need to get up and tidy up around here a bit. I am watching E after school tomorrow. Shannon's got pep band after school, and then a it should be a nice relaxing night at least!


Did you know it's National De-Lurking Day? I didn't either, until I started blog-hopping tonight.

This is a new blog, so I know there aren't THAT many readers here yet...but if you stop by, please leave a comment and let me know you were here!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Back in the saddle

Monday was Day 7. I skipped yesterday, so I considered today Day 8.

Patrick attempted to Shred again, although he had to stop in the middle. Tonight was a tough one. I don't know if it's because I was sick yesterday, or if I exercised too late in the evening again, but I just didn't have as much energy. I had to really push to get through it. But I did it!

I think I need to really focus on getting my workout in before dinner time. If I wait until after dinner, I'm just too worn out to exercise that intensely. Tomorrow, Patrick and I have an appointment at 3, so I need to work-out right when I get home from work. Well, actually...I'm not sure how that will work. I tend to get home around 1:30 and we'll need to leave around 2:15. That's not enough time to work-out, and get cleaned up again. I'll figure it out, lol.

I'm gonna go hit the shower and head to bed.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Not tonight

I have been sneezing literally ALL day. I actually sneezed so much at work that the kids were starting to fake sneeze so they could "bless" each other. Cute, but sad too. My director tried to send me home at 10am, but we couldn't find a I stayed until my kids went home, and then my aide covered "late stay" for me.

I still had it in my mind that I would Shred tonight, but Patrick said "No way." So, I will hope for tomorrow.

Monday, January 11, 2010


I'm sitting here across the room from Shannon's guinea pig...and I can hear her breathing all the way over here. It doesn't sound labored or's just loud. She's not a "young" guinea pig (we've had her since Shannon was in 3rd grade), so I wonder if this is an aging thing.

I shredded tonight, and it was better than last night. Today is Day I've been at this a week! I know it's too soon, but I wish I could see a difference somewhere. That's what REALLY motivates me. I'll take some pictures on Day 10. I wonder if I'll see any changes. I still really have a hard time with that set of jumping jacks / jump rope. I have NO idea why it's' so hard for me, but it's like my quads (the part directly above my knee...not further up my thigh) just seize up. So strange! I can do the jumping jacks early in the work-out, and I can do the full 2 minutes of cardio at the's just the middle section that gives me fits. Definitely odd.

I had an interesting revelation last night at Bible Study...I think it's probably a "touchy" subject, and I absolutely mean no disrespect or to make sweeping's just what I've experienced.

So, our Bible Study is merging with another...and the pastor of the church we'll be merging with came to meet with us afterward. After the meeting-talk, things just kind of shifted into chit-chat. He (an older his 70's) was talking about how conservative he is, and how "the church" needs to be that way, and how "we" need to be careful not to become complacent (liberal). Now, out of respect, I kept my mouth shut, but let me just share that I was born and raised in California. I am becoming more conservative as I age, plus living here in the South is taking it's "toll" (haha) on me as well. But suffice it to say, I'm still quite liberal in many ways.

And now, for a little background story. I grew up in the United Methodist Church. I was active in church activities through my childhood and high school. During my college years I slacked off, but began attending again after college, and especially after Shannon was born. I grew up with the notion of Hell being "where you go if you're evil," and really the only idea of Satan/The Devil I had was that silly saying "the devil made me do it." In middle school, I went through confirmation, and accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Here in GA, we are members of and regularly attend a United Methodist Church.

Now, about a 10 months ago, I started really going through a spiritual change. After Patrick's accident, my life just changed a lot, and through no conscious decision, I just sort of started slipping away. I was so devoted to taking care of Shannon, Patrick, our home, my job, our pets, etc...that I forgot to take care of me. A dear family friend (DM) reached out to me, and basically offered me a life line. He is a wonderful (and extremely educated) Christian mentor to me. In some of our talks/studies he would talk about "the enemy" and finally I had to ask him straight out...because I didn't know what he was talking about, lol. We had to have a couple very serious talks about Satan/Hell.

So...on to my "revelation." Listening to this pastor talk and share a story last night, it finally dawned on me. I was brought up in a very liberal state, and in my experience you "accept Jesus as your Lord" and follow him...and live a good life. Here in the South, you are "saved." But being saved connotes being saved FROM Satan or Hell. This had never occurred to me that my physical, geographical upbringing would have anything (or so MUCH) to do with my evolving religious/spiritual beliefs. I mean...I've been in the United Methodist Church basically my entire life...and yet from coast to coast, from liberal to conservative...the methods of "religious education" are vastly different.

Let me just say again, I hope this doesn't offend anyone. It was not my intention to make sweeping generalizations of "liberal Californians" or "conservative Southerners"...more just to note this observation I had.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I've been Shredded

So, today was Day 6 of the Shred, and so far it was the hardest. A few things were different, and that could be the issue. I worked out a lot later today, and didn't have dinner first. I just felt completely wrung out, and like I wanted to quit the whole time. I felt fat, and weak. Ugh! I pushed through, and that's good. But yuck. I hope tomorrow is better.

Getting to Know YOU Sunday

Keely over at MannLand5 does something called Getting to know you on Sundays. So, here are my answers! Have a good night all...hope more people do this too!

1. If you were stranded on a desert island and could pick one person to be stranded with you..Who would you pick? Family members not included.

I would choose my very best friend, Vickie. Both of us know a fair amount of outdoorsy stuff...but beyond that, we'd laugh the entire time.

2. Do you read celebrity gossip?

Beyond what's forced upon me at the check out stands, no.

3. Favorite show you're watching this season?

I don't watch a lot of TV...but I never ever miss The Biggest Loser, so I guess that would be it!

4. How tall are you?

I'm not, lol. If I stand up straight, I'm 5'4".

5. What was the last book you read?

"My Life in France," by Julia Child. It was FASCINATING.

6. Flats or heels?

Definitely flats. I used to be a heels person, and I'm not sure what happened, but I'm totally a flats girl now.

7. If you had to choose one natural disaster to go through, what would you choose..Earthquake, Tornado, or Hurricane?

I guess I'd choose earthquake because I've already done that. I lived in the SF Bay Area when the 1989 Loma Prieta Quake hit. (So, does that mean I'm off the hook to go through any others? lol) Living near Atlanta now, we have a couple close-calls with tornados each year, and that's no fun either.

8. Thong, panties, or (gasp) granny panties?

Just plain ole panties. Y'know...Hanes Her Way or something *fancy* like that.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Good news / "bad" news

The good news is: Christmas is completely down and put away in the attic.

The "bad" news is: I overindulged on dessert after dinner. I was planning to have some....but then I had MORE. Oops.

Feeling blessed

It's a nice day today.

Slept in, and Patrick took Shannon to Girl Scouts. (It's officially cookie time! Aaaack!) While she was gone, I did my prep for Bible Study tomorrow night. The snow is melting outside in the sunshine, but it's still chilly (33 degrees) outside.

Patrick came home and laid down to rest his poor head. He napped for a bit, while I tidied up the kitchen. I was going to wake him up when it was time to go get Shan, but his Dad called about 45 minutes before that time. They talked for a few minutes, and then P said " much for my nap. Let's go Shred." Whoa. And so, we shredded!

Now, Shan is home, and the two of them are working on dinner. We're having a beef roast with potatoes and mushrooms.

Today is officially "Let's Take Down Christmas" day. As soon as dinner's in the oven, we're hitting the attic.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Snow Day Shred

Today was a snow day! Woohoo! I'm a preschool teacher, so whenever our county schools call a snow day, our preschool follows suit. Shannon, of course, was super excited. Her BFF invited her to come over (before the roads got icy) to play in the snow, and sleep-over.

Patrick and I got up today, and once the sun came out and started to dry a bit of the roads, we went for a drive. We've always loved to go for rides in the car together, so this has become something of a tradition for us. (I'll also give a little more background here...since I have some new readers. Patrick and I dated in high school, and married one year after I graduated. This July will mark our 20th wedding anniversary. Three years ago, Patrick was injured in a car accident was is now considered permanently disabled. He deals with terrible daily pain. The past few years, in addition to trying to find relief for him, have been a tremendous journey in redefining who he is, what our roles are, etc.)

As we were heading out, we were going to stop for lunch. I said "There's Arby's, Chick-Fil-A, and Sonic...which do you want?" And he said "Which one is healthier?" My downfall is that I wasn't even THINKING healthy food...I was thinking "FUN! Snow Day Food!" So I said "Well, Chick-Fil-A has good char-grilled sandwiches. We could have that." And so we did! I thanked him for encouraging us to make a good choice.

Anyway. We picked up Shan on the way home, and then P and I took a nap. LOL! Again...gotta love a snow day. When we got up, I knew it was time to Shred. I encouraged Patrick to do it with me. (More background: Due to his disability, he's gained a lot of weight over the past three years. Probably about 80-ish pounds. It's very hard for him to do physical things, plus he spends a lot of time lying down, just trying to deal with his pain.) He said he would try it!

For me, Day 4 was a mixed bag. My legs felt really heavy, but I had more energy to push through the cardio. It's neat to feel my endurance increasing. Like I said yesterday, I can also feel that my muscles are getting stronger, it's just still hiding under the jiggle.

Patrick did great for his first try! He had to take a lot of breaks, but he kept getting up and trying again. The last 2 minute cardio bit, he had to just march in place...but I am so proud of him for doing it!!!

Bring on Day 5.

Thursday, January 7, 2010


Snow Day tomorrow! No school! Yippee!!!

Snowy Shred - Day 3

So, my snow has started...yippee!!! Let it snow and snow and snow!

While Patrick went to pick up Shannon from school I did day 3 of The Shred. I felt sluggish getting started, but found that I had a bit more endurance, and didn't have to stop and gasp at all. I was definitely panting...but I didn't have to stop to catch my breath. I did have to do that quick knee raise thing a few times during jump rope, but I really think that is due to muscle fatigue, and just a quick stretch gives me more circulation there.

So now, my hard work is done...and I get to just sit and watch it snow.

Now that January 6th has come and gone, I *could* take down my Christmas tree, but I think I might wait til this weekend. It snows so rarely here, I just want to enjoy it!

Oh, oh, oh! I weighed in at 208 today! That's 3 pounds gone in a week.

Spelling Bee Update

She won!!! I am SO proud of her!!!

I was thinking about it this morning, and with the exception of 4th grade when she was absent with scarlet fever...she has been in the school bee every year, and won every year! She is quite a kid. (For those of you who are new to reading my blog...Shannon is newly 13, and in 7th grade.)

I thought the words were hard this year. Here are the words Shannon spelled:

*hazmat (which I didn't realize was actually a "word")

This is when it got down to two spellers, and then Shannon's words were:

*unsentimental (the other speller missed this, so Shan did it, and then won with....)

The "poetic justice" for today was that there was this kid in there that was just a total showoff and acting like an ass. Seriously, he was so annoying. He got out in round 2, on the word "immature." Ha! So then, to have Shannon win with "humility" was sweet.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Day 2 DONE

I did my day 2 workout, and while it was hard and painful...I was able to do a lot more of it. I didn't have that "Oh my God, I'm going to collapse" feeling. And I was thankful.

I think the hardest thing for me is all the stuff where I have to propel myself off the floor. I'm fine with them at first, but very quickly my quads feel like they're just not going to hold me up. I found that when I get that feeling, if I pull each knee up to my chest, I'm then able to continue with the exercise. I don't know if they're just overworked, or if it's a kind of cramp? Or if I'm just a wuss. But I was able to do a lot more today.

I don't have to go to work tomorrow, and I'm pretty excited about it for a couple reasons. 1) I get to sleep in. I LOVE SLEEP. I could marry sleep. 2) I called in a sub to teach for me because my daughter is in her school spelling bee....very cool. 3) It's supposed to snow tomorrow! I have a lot of new readers, so you probably don't know...but I am THE BIGGEST weather dork alive. I think I'm 8 years old inside.

Anyway, tomorrow's gonna rock, and I can't wait!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Day 1 Shred complete, and a revelation

So I gritted myself through Day 1, and it was tough! There were a few places I had to just march in place or I would have collapsed. But I did it! I wonder how sore I'll be tomorrow.

An interesting thing happened afterward though. One of the things that I feel remorse about is that I haven't been a better example for my daughter, as it relates to diet and fitness. I know I need to model the behavior I hope her to copy, but more often than not...I don't. And she is following in my ways I regret. Anyway, I was all hot and sweaty when she got home from school. (Usually I'm sitting on my bed or the couch, using my computer.) She asked what I had done and I told her about The Shred. She said "I wish it wasn't too cold to go for a bike ride." I told her that she could wear a coat and gloves (it's about 30 out) and ride, ride, ride! I am 100% positive that if I had been sitting on my bed like normal, that is NOT what she would have said. She would have gotten HER laptop and joined me. But, I was sitting there, sweaty from working out...and she had the idea to go ride her bike.

It's amazing when life's lessons are so evident.

The decision to Shred

So, I've been seeing all these bloggers starting the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I've heard it's incredibly hard, but I also have seen their before/after pictures...and they're amazing. I was going to watch said bloggers, just to see how it went, etc. But the funny thing about that, is that it kept popping into my head..."you could do it too, y'know." I knew my subconscious would not be satisfied. So finally today, I gave in and bought the DVD and some hand weights. Today begins The Shredding of Cindy. Pray for me!

Monday, January 4, 2010

OK, this time for sure!

I'm not a loser...I'm really not. I think I just had a false-start. I think I'm just still in vacation mindset, but since I'm going back to work tomorrow, it will be easier to get on track. Suffice it to say, I didn't work out today. I've been sleeping like Crizzap, and HAD to take a nap after E went home this afternoon.

The good news is, Shannon and I took E up to preschool and got a bunch of prepwork done. I feel pretty darn ready for the kids to come tomorrow! Woot! Oh! And Patrick mailed my sister's surprise this morning. I can't wait for her to get it!

And now...the not so pretty. I may not have exercised, but I had Patrick take my before pictures. This is NOT easy for me. At. All. In fact, I'd really rather post anything BUT my pictures and weight, but I'm serious about making a change this year, and so I'm going to post them. I'm going to post pictures along the way too, but I can't decide if I should do it at certain pound increments (like 10 pounds lost, 20 pounds lost, etc.) or like...monthly? Thoughts?

OK. My starting weight is 211 lbs. I'm only 5'4", so that's WAY too much. The lowest I've EVER weighed as an "adult" was 128, and I was 18 years old. It was actually too thin for my build. Now that I'm 20 years older, and have had a child, I would be deliriously happy to weigh 145. I guess that means I need to lose 66 lbs. Ouch. The way I'm choosing to look at this is: the is the most I will EVER weigh again.

I pretty much hate looking at those pictures. I'm embarrassed and ashamed. But it is what it is...and all I can do is start fixing it. And so, off I go.

Comments fixed! and other business

It was brought to my attention (thanks Keely!) that my comments were not working. They're fixed now, so...get to commenting! LOL!

Also, the other night I signed up with The BlogFrog, and I have to say it's a pretty fun, easy way to see and follow who is visiting your blog. If you don't have it, I'd recommend it! Thumbs up from me!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Small victories

So it's all about taking steps, right? Some forward, and admittedly...some backward.

Steps forward:

My sister's surprise is all ready to go. I'll drop it off tomorrow on the way to preschool. I'm watching E tomorrow, and we're going up to school to take down December stuff and put up January. I'll do a bit of prepwork too. Shannon doesn't go back to school until Tuesday, so I'm enlisting her help as well.

Bible study went great tonight. We had a little group, so the big kids came in with my little guys and we did Romans 12 together. We were talking about gratitude and God's grace. Very nice.

Steps backward:

Today we didn't go to church. This is a problem for me. I struggle with the motivation to go, and I know how horrible that sounds. I'm not sure what the hold up is. Shannon is going through Confirmation this year, and we're committed to making sure that SHE gets there, and I KNOW that we need to be going too...but somewhere there is a disconnect. Working on it.

While at Bible Study, one of the bigger girls was telling about some cookies she ate today. It was those Heath Bar Cookies that you make with saltine crackers, etc. I ADORE those, and I'd forgotten all about them. Usually I make a batch over Christmas break, and somehow it just totally escaped me this year. I stopped on the way home, bought the ingredients and made them with Shan tonight. So yeah, we didn't exercise tonight. We ate cookies. Back on track tomorrow. That's what it's all about right? You just keep trying.

And now for some cute! The other night...let's see, New Year's Eve snowed here! SO exciting! We live outside Atlanta, so while we get *a little* snow each year, it hardly EVER amounts to anything. We get SO tickled every time we see it. Shannon brought Rosie (our chihuahua) out into the snow...aren't they sweet?

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Getting to Know YOU Sunday

I stumbled upon a cute/fun blog carnival today. Keely over at MannLand5 does something called Getting to know you on Sundays. So, here are my answers! Have a good night all...hope more people do this too!

1. Where were you born?

I was born in Oakland, CA

2. Toilet you crinkle/crumple or fold it?
I guess I'm a crumpler...I tend to make a snowball of sorts. (Is that TMI?)

3. What was the last movie you saw in the theater?

We saw Avatar in 3D and LOVED it!

4. What room to you spend the most time in besides your bedroom?
Mmm, probably the kitchen.

5. Would you be grossed out if you found out your husband/boyfriend/significant other hadn't brushed their teeth for 4 days and you had been snogging (kissing) them?

Um, YES! Ew.

6. Do you fold your underwear?

7. What is one goal you would like to achieve this year?

I'd like to run a 5K.

8. What is your favorite month/least favorite month?

I think my favorite month is December...cold weather, Christmas, time with family, a break from work, etc. Probably my least favorite is big holidays, and just plain hot and humid.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

First steps

I accomplished pretty much everything I wanted to today. Really, the only thing that I didn't completely finish was my sister's surprise. I need to write a letter to include with it, and then box it up to mail on Monday. (I did stop by the PO and get a box though...woot!)

I got back into my Wii Active 30 day Challenge today. On the days it gives me "off," I'll either do our elliptical, yoga, or pilates. I keep hearing about the 30 Day Shred, and would love to try it...but I don't have, this will have to do, lol! The Wii Active lady kept pissing me off tonight though. I would be doing exactly the right thing and it'd say I was going too slow, or something. I was like "what the heck?!?" Maybe my sensor was in the wrong place or something. But geez...don't yell at me when I'm finally trying to do the right thing! ;-)

I have been sleeping SO terribly the past few days. Literally, lying awake ALL night, and then wanting to sleep all morning. Finally yesterday and today, I'm forcing myself back into a normal schedule. The good news? Tonight, I'm tired! Hopefully this will be the night that I sleep all night, and wake up raring to go. If nothing else, I will be watching E on Monday and then go back to work on Tuesday. That will get me back on track.

It was super freezing today. (Well, for Atlanta, lol.) The warmest I ever saw it was 34 degrees, and it was WINDY. Brrrr! I actually saw a chance of snow in our forecast later this week. Please, oh please, oh please! Let it snow!

OK. I'm gonna go snuggle up with Patrick and finish this movie and then try to SLEEP! More tomorrow.

First day of the rest of my life

Rosie kept me up all night, so I didn't get up quite as early as I had planned, but aside from that...I'll be a busy little bee today.

I've gotten my calendar and newsletter done for one of my classes, and am about to start on them for class #2.

I'm on my second load of laundry.

Shannon and I are going to run out in a bit to work on a surprise for my sister. As part of my quest of "being a better friend," I have realized that I can also be a better sister. We are putting a little sumpin'-sumpin' together for her and her partner. I don't *think* she reads my blog, but I'm going to be a little secretive about it until I know she's received it. (Oh! mental note...I need to get a bag of dog food while we're out.)

There will also be some form of exercise today too...I think it'll either be elliptical machine, or Shan's new Wii game called "Just Dance!"

I think I'm prepared for Bible Study tomorrow night, but I should probably look over my lesson plan to be sure. The adults spend many weeks on the same chapter, so as the children's teacher, my lessons follow in that chapter as well. We've been on the same chapter (Romans 12) for about a month...but we missed a week of class, so I am pretty sure I have a lesson plan all ready to go! Yay!

I'm getting just about ready to take down our Christmas decorations too, although...the problem with establishing family traditions is that sometimes they end up dictating HOW and WHEN things can happen. We've always left our decor up until Epiphany...and Shannon knows this. I mentioned that I was pretty much ready to reclaim the house, and she about had a hissy fit, lol. "Mom! It's not January 6th!" So yeah. Maybe we'll leave it up a few more days.

Last week I saw this cute idea on Make and Takes to make 2010 glasses out of pipe cleaners (what's the politically correct name for those now? I can't remember... a-ha! chenille stems!). I know it's probably meant for younger kids, but I decided to make them with Shannon...and it turns out we had a lot of fun. She thinks I'm nuts, but that's OK. Here is my cute family on New Year's Eve!

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Friday, January 1, 2010

Simplifying things

Happy New Year! Welcome 2010!

For my New Year's resolution last year, I resolved to trust more and worry less. By and large, I succeeded by leaps and bounds in this area. With the help of a good friend (DM), I brought my life back on track. I am working on "finding myself," and being authentic with my thoughts and actions. I am reading scripture on a daily basis now, and I find that my mindset is much more positive.

This year, my resolutions can be summed up with one word: SIMPLIFY. Generally speaking, I feel like my life is just too complicated. It is these complications that keep trying to pull me off course. To throw me back into anxiety and side-track me with human desires.

Last night, Patrick, Shannon and I sat around the kitchen table and made a list of our resolutions. Here are mine:
  • Simplify eating / food choices
  • Simplify spending
  • Continue to simplify thought processes from worry, fear, and faith and gratitude
  • Be a better friend (keep in contact, and send notes & gifts)
  • Exercise 5x per week
We all shared our goals and talked about steps to take toward each. As a family, we have been taking steps toward simplifying our lives since about November. We're paring down our belongings, and taking formal steps toward getting our finances in order. I feel like several (if not all) of my resolutions follow naturally along this path.

Next, Patrick had us turn our papers over, and divide them in half vertically. One one side, he asked us to write characteristics we see in ourselves (and are unhappy with) now, and then on the other side to write the characteristic we're striving for. Again, here are mine: (format: Now/Future)
  • sidetracked / focused
  • procrastinator / prepared
  • worried...obsessive / faithful
  • lazy...tired...weary / energetic...dutiful
  • self focused / selfless (and acting on it!)
This was a great exercise. It was very easy at first, and then got hard. But I really had a good feeling envisioning the me I want to be. Doing this exercise really helped me to see the steps I need to take in order to get there.

I love that our family is taking these steps together.